Love Letters - Episode 3

June 9th






Fuck.
I like you so much.
I can feel the back of my neck get hot whenever I think about you.
I'm so infatuated with you.
I love your mouth,
your mind,
your body.
I miss the feeling of your tongue against mine already,
the way you kissed the back of my neck and called me beautiful,
the way your hands touched my bare skin.
I can hardly believe you said all those things you said to me,
about you,
about me.
You like me and that is such a strange concept to wrap my tiny head around.

Yet sober you still seems to not even be able to look at me.
You said so much on Saturday night.
Yet now it's Tuesday and you can't say a word.
I want to talk to you.
I want to know everything about you.
Everything.

Your new song is
wow.
So nice I teared up a little.
Not because the sounds are technically sad or moving.
But, because there's a slight chance it could be about me.
"Cuddle Up, Settle Down"
I don't know any other girls this title could refer to.
You could've named it anything.
But, you made it romantic.
You purposely suggested that the song is about cuddling up and settling down with someone.
With me?
I mean, we've cuddled up,
we could settle down?
You did tell me you like me.
Please like me.

I've started thinking about you non stop now.
I can barely even concentrate in class now.
Its just you,
you,
you.
Constantly on my mind.

When you held my hand on Saturday, I felt so safe.
So certain you have feelings for me.
You squeezed it gently.
And I wanted to kiss you so hard.
When we lost our grip for a few seconds,
and we reached out and found each other again,
I knew in that moment,
that we have such an indescribable connection and general admiration for one another.

You're the most attractive boy I know.
Everything about you seems so wonderful and fascinating.
You're like space.
I want to explore you,
figure you out,
know what makes you so special and unique.
I want to know you.
I want to be with you.
I want to touch you in every way possible.
I want to love you.



(image not mine)